Samukassem14

JJ! Le happylittlejellybean has tagged me and helped me kill my hiatus! For today at least, I'll probably be back on hiatus by sunrise!

*cough cough* advertising her like now go'n check her account out *cough*
I don't tag people, even tho I don't mind being tagged, 

Here are the RULES!

1. You have to post the rules (I'll just obey cuz it's J)
2. Answer the questions from the tagger and create 12 new questions for those you tag next.
3. Choose 12 people to tag ( Which I never actually do! )
4. Tag those people ( Wuh- um what! :v )
5. Tag-backs are allowed!

I feel like it's the time where I shamely talk about my life

1. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go and what would you do?

Even if it sounds foolish or dumb, I still have the same fantasies of when I was a kid, see the
Big Ben and hear its midnight strikes , look at the Eiffel Tower during a bright Night, go to the Rome Coliseum, 
and the old-fashioned-I-wanna Climb The Everest, never really grown out of it;

2. What is your favorite song or genre of music?

I kind of always were a Rock person, but I also like Pop, Indie, Dubstep, and some Game Music too;

3. Do you play any instruments? If yes, what do you play?

Piano, but only for fun, nothing crazy good;

4. If you could save a random stranger's life and make it better for them, would you?

Yes, absolutely, everybody deserves a chance;

5. What is your favorite video game?

Minecraft, Mario Brothers, Sonic The Hedgehog , The Sims;

6. What would your dream world look like if you could create one?

It's just crazy to think of a perfect world, there would always be flaws, but, a world with
less hatred and more love would be the dream world for me;

7. How would you spend your money if you won the lottery?

Well, a house, for one, to stop living under rents, I'd pay my own college and, maybe 
achieve some of the desires I always had from the 1st question;

8. Who is your favorite character (video game, TV show, here on DeviantART, etc.)?

Chloe Price, from Life is Strange;

9. Who is someone that you look up to in your life?

Well, my mother of course;

10. Do you like wearing jewelry? If yes, what kinds of jewelry do you wear?

I just wear a ring on my left hand, thing my mom carried for years;

11. What is something about you that makes you happy or proud to be the person you are?

I like that I'm caring, and that I know how to listen to people, 
but sometimes caring too much can be a problem, but it has its golden moments, so I'll take it

12. What is something that you want everyone to know about you?

Hmm... I'm trying..?
I mean! Okay, listen, or read, I am not as active here as I used to, not because I'm being lazy or because my feelings are attacking again 

no, I am, actually, doing pretty much alright, but let's be honest, it doesnt' change that much, I ain't famous, I ain't active, I ain't motivated, bla bla bla, we're all used to it, so, yeah, nothing changed, I'm fine, but busy, I am now legally an adult and I have to deal with adult things like voting, driving, health, job, organizing my time, etc, and I always was pretty bad at organizing my time even when I was back at school, so, Ill probably be even less active on deviantart from now on, BUT! But. You can always send me a note, I am reading notes because they are the thing that means "this is important" or "Im being missed", of course, of course, I'm reading the kind comments, thank you everybody, you're amazing, but, I barely come here anymore I barely draw anymore, specifically because, I have to adjust to the system of growing up here, I don't claim ignorance, and I don't claim arrogance, I'm no better than anyone so don't feel like I'm ignoring you or anything, I got ya'lls backs, I'm just busy


But if you wanna have a little chat, like I said, I'm replying notes for now, when I'm more organized maybe I'll go back to posting and replying, faving and watching, etc, thank you for reading, and cya'll around.

Tagged By and he feels sorry, little does he know! I never listen to the rules  
Rules (which I won't listen to) : 
1) You have to post ALL the rules
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Questions:

1) What is your Favourite Pokemon?

I never was a Pokémon Person, even when I was a kid, I never had any idea of their names or... anything at all, so, Pikachu;

2) PlayStation or Xbox?

Playstation          _{2  .w.}   ;

3) which youtuber do you watch the most?

CoryxKenshin, Kubz Scouts, Malena010102;

4) What do you hate most about School (If you're out of school, just say what you used to hate.

It's a place full of people those demand of you to learn what you don't want to learn for 14years of your life and then when you leave that place you immediatly forget everything;

5) If you could travel anywhere, where would you go?

The thing is... I'm alright here at Brazil, no wars, no eartquakes, no snow, no volcanos, no tornadoes, no tsunamis...

6) What browser do you use?

Google Chrome;

7) Which program (if any) do you draw with?

Paint MS and Paint.NET;

8) What is your favorite song?

I've been listening to a lot of IndieAir channel's Songs, I also put a song link in the description of every drawing I make;

9) Can you Ignore this question?













no;

10) What is your favorite style of art?

Digital Art, Photographs and Paintings

11) Do you think 2018 will be like the last two years?

It didn't start that great, yea, but here's hoping it won't;

12) What is the current thought that ran through your mind just now?

Wow what the shit! Was that a fly o:


I don't know how to play \( 'u')/ so this is over here at my end!

I'll try to make any sort of poses, depending on the client's desire.

I've been noticing that some people seem a little worried about me,
even if I already said what I had to I feel like it's time to talk about this again...

For who still wasn't knowing, I suffer from Depression and Anxiety, for...
around 7 years already. And before I talk about this
I want you to know that what I will say is my personal opinion on the matter, and my experience with the problems so far,
you are never forced to agree with me, but you have to respect it, okay? okay...

Depression is seen by many as "A way of getting attention", or "Drama"... but, that's far from the truth, really far,actually.
Depression is not drama, it is not a thing to joke about, it's not something fun... depression is an actual illness,
it makes that your brain doesn't produce some of the hormones that it should, that you need,
in other words, you don't feel the joy and happiness you are supposed to feel, 
if you never went through depression you'll probably not understand quite well, but, when you are depressed, you don't feel "Sad",
you don't feel sorrow, anger, joy, you don't feel it, you feel.... nothing. Just an endless agony that suffocates you.

That Agony makes you feel like you are the main reason why you ended up like that,
you feel like everything that's going wrong is going wrong because of you, because you are there, and even tho you know that isn't true, depression makes you question yourself about that.
You feel you didn't do enough, you feel that you are letting everyone down, you feel useless and worthless, that you don't have talents, you feel like you are not good enough, that you can't do anything right... and even when people compliment you, you still can't get out of that bad place...because you feel like they are lying to make you feel better.

Some people tend to... 'end it' before it's their time due to all the suffering they went through. Because basically, when you
have depression and anxiety, you live your entire life under pressure and torture and you just want it to stop, you want it to end for good, and there's no such thing as a ''second option'' in the head of people with those problems, a second chance does not exist, it isn't a thing, it isn't.

I find it kind of interesting how people try to understand ''why?''...
"Why are you depressed?","What happened to make you feel that way?","Why don't you react against it?"...
If you ever questioned any of those, the answer is: there is no special reason, it's just.... everything.
It's not... 'the job that they lost', 'their puppy that died','they got a bad grade', it's... everything, literally everything.

How to explain..? Imagine a piece of paper, it's light, you can carry it with no problem, but now imagine that everytime you feel bad
about something you add a new piece of paper to the pile, the pile will grow and grow until it's too heavy that you can't carry it anymore, and then that's when you have to decide if you'll ask for someone to help you carry that.. or if you'll just drop it and quit.

I know that people try to help the ones with depression, but saying "its just a phase", "go to church", "don't feel sad",
"think of the people who love you" does not help at all. I don't mean to be rude, I'm grateful for the ones that said/say that to me,
but I don't feel better... like I said... you can't get out of that bad place from a day to another, there's no such thing as a 'cure for depression'.
There are treatments, which are of big help for some people, but they don't work if the person themseves doesn't want to do them,
it must be a baby step taken by them, it's their own choice.

I just came to clarify a little bit of what it is like, but again, this is my personal opinion, maybe this helps you deal with someone who's in that condition, and, also,
if you feel like you can't take it anymore, talk to someone you care about, your mom, dad, brother, sister, best friend, dog, parrot, anyone, just don't go through it alone, remember that you have to think of your own self before anyone else, do what's best for your own.

Thanks for reading.